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Glowing Up

BY: @kathtea | CREATED: Feb. 13, 2018, 6:51 a.m. | VOTES: 34 | PAYOUT: $2.34 | [ VOTE ]

I was so concerned with being single, having few friends, being tan, finding approval from others. It led me into rushing into relationships that were unhealthy just so I can tell people I am in a relationship. I used to throw my tennis matches because I had so much anxiety that I would rather lose than try to win.

[IMAGE: https://i.imgur.com/L9SZ5mC.jpg]

Today, I embrace the weird, I stopped trying to feminize myself just because some guys say I don’t “fit” their subreddit. I don’t care if I get a little tan if it means I get to work on my cardio by swimming. I try to meditate every night to fight insomnia caused by anxiety and hypomania. I am currently pursuing someone without rushing it as it’s more valuable to make good friends rather than jumping into romance.

[IMAGE: http://gifimage.net/wp-content/uploads/2017/09/be-yourself-gif-10.gif]

Yes, I’m not the most popular model or cosplayer in the country but frankly, that doesn’t matter. I have a small circle of supporters on Patreon and they make me very happy with their support. Plus, I am finally writing again, except there’s a chance I can actually do this full-time.

I don’t know what will change in the next 10 years, hopefully, my income would be much more stable. I might have my own apartment and studio set with an office. Maybe I would be in a long term relationship, maybe even married.

I will do my best to take each day as they come and always put my emotions and mental heallth first.

[IMAGE: https://78.media.tumblr.com/ce2931a48b27e3b7b8ccc37de66df197/tumblr_mved1iKomo1qlvwnco1_r1_400.gif]

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TAGS: [ #blog ] [ #photo ] [ #glowup ] [ #teammalaysia ] [ #teamgirlpowa ]

Replies

@heroiyke | Feb. 13, 2018, 6:55 a.m. | Votes: 0 | [ VOTE ]

Love yourself,be who you are and love shall follow you. You are too precious and beautiful to be rushing into relationships. Take life easy and you will enjoy the beat of it. I love you dearly.

@kathtea | Feb. 13, 2018, 7:15 a.m. | Votes: 0 | [ VOTE ]

You're so sweet, thank you.

@heroiyke | Feb. 13, 2018, 7:25 a.m. | Votes: 0 | [ VOTE ]

Thanks babe

@nationall | Feb. 13, 2018, 7 a.m. | Votes: 0 | [ VOTE ]

The thing that matters is how you feel and what your heart and mind dictate to you

@kathtea | Feb. 13, 2018, 7:15 a.m. | Votes: 0 | [ VOTE ]

Thank you so much!

@perennial | Feb. 13, 2018, 7:24 a.m. | Votes: 0 | [ VOTE ]

I think i can recognise the first picture...its in University Malaya rite.

Nice, I think we all relate to what you just said...everyone has their insecurities and usually we all suffer from the same insecurities. It is only whether we admit it or we swore by our ancestor's grave that we are not that person who shies away from the public or the awkward one that holds a bottle of alcohol in the club and not knowing how to get jiggy with it. We are all that. Thanks for being honest. Happy Valentine's day.

@kathtea | Feb. 13, 2018, 12:25 p.m. | Votes: 0 | [ VOTE ]

Impossible. X'D I thought this was when I played tennis during SUKMA Melaka.

@sapphic | Feb. 13, 2018, 7:25 a.m. | Votes: 0 | [ VOTE ]

Love reading your posts.

@kathtea | Feb. 13, 2018, 12:26 p.m. | Votes: 0 | [ VOTE ]

Thanks <3

@sherylneil | Feb. 13, 2018, 7:58 a.m. | Votes: 1 | [ VOTE ]

Hoping you all the best @kathtea. Carry on. Do what you love to do as long as you are not hurting anyone. Don't mind people, they are their to annoy you.

@kathtea | Feb. 13, 2018, 12:31 p.m. | Votes: 0 | [ VOTE ]

Humans are annoying, in general. :P

@incomprehensibl3 | Feb. 13, 2018, 12:15 p.m. | Votes: 0 | [ VOTE ]

good job!! great progress!

@sumayyahsaidso | Feb. 13, 2018, 12:38 p.m. | Votes: 3 | [ VOTE ]

Yes! you are 100% a complete person, not just half of a relationship. Love yourself. Embrace yourself. Good for you, figuring it out this early, because some people never do.

@steampunk-penny | Feb. 14, 2018, 1:56 a.m. | Votes: 1 | [ VOTE ]

You are, in fact, singularly amazing in every way. I am so very glad to hear you are stepping into your own and embracing yourself as you move forward. I cant wait to hear all about it and enjoy your beyond amazing cosplay!!! What is your patreon account name? Upvoted-resteemed-promoted. Much love.

@chynaann | Feb. 14, 2018, 3 a.m. | Votes: 0 | [ VOTE ]

You are beautiful from inside and out. I remember dealing with the same problem because of my autism when I was in school. It was the worst time in my life.

I’m definitely following you and I hope to see more posts from you in the future

Love Chyna♥️

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