I've been trying to apply "not avoiding conflicts and truth" since I have learned about Human Design and my open centers.
For me who is a very private person (believe it or not), someone with trust issues and more in the mix, stating my needs, stating what is hurting, sharing my feelings have always been super hard.
It's such a gift though to be able to share, despite your fear, knowing someone is holding space for you to do it.
The more I speak my truth, the more I discover people who are ready to hold space for me, receive me, hear me out.
This is so precious. Being seen and heard. Feeling safe.
I have been doing lots of manual work and gardening work the last 10 days, and while doing so, listening to [Brene Brown's work.] (https://brenebrown.com/)
She talks about vulnerability, Joy, connections and belonging, being seen and heard. I truly adore her. I have laughed with her, cried listening to her.
I wonder if she heard of Human Design because I found lots of what she says fits so well with the system.
After this week, where lots of radical honesty happened, lots of unraveling, healing and risk taking, I feel stronger than ever than there's no going back. I feel so much stronger for showing up entirely, fears, flaws, darts and all.
2019, you keep on delivering. What a ride...
And you? how are you
@ocbd I was buying votes to feel seen, even if I'm aware it was a trick of the mind. It's also a way of getting a tiny return of energy/money back from being on the platform.
I get crickets whenever I post on any social, Steem was my happy place to imagine and visualize that I was finally getting eyes on what I create. I understand the spirit and why you did, but you're crushing a crucial tool and dream and my desire to share here... It would have been nice to post the comment before downvoting.
You don't know me or my situation, seeing the STEEM I was about to get next week was a big highlight for me. This downvote is really really hurting right now... Not really "kindly" way of dealing with things.
Got the message, painfully. Won't do it anymore...
Do you understand that rewards are not yours until post payout? During those 7 days, it is subject to change based on curator evaluations based on their criteria.
If the perceived value the contribution adds to the network does not correspond with the actual payout, we fix it using negative votes. That's perfectly reasonable.
It seems that you suppose that because you bought votes that you are entitled to the payout. None of us are entitled to anything more than what we receive after 7 days. That is what stakeholders decide.
Buying votes does not make your content exempt from curation. Matter of fact, it tends to be an invitation for more careful curation.
If only the government worked the same way, we would have much less waste. If the pay is more than the work, we take it away. It's a simple concept which I hope you will take the time to think about.
If you continue spamming our mentions, you will be banned from the bot. We can be resources to you but you need to get your head on straight and think beyond your own wallet.