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For the past few years, I have not create any contents.. glad that the project are still around although I think I have missed a lot of the development. The community is getting stronger than ever. Happy to see the growth of the Hive community. The crypto industry now is a trillion market rather than just few hundred millions.

Still learning of what new on hive as I can see there are a lot of new projects build on top of it. I get the information from hive.io. This is how much I have missed the development of the projects. Still exploring one by one of the projects and learning the tools.

For the past few years, a lot had happened in my life. Some good some bad, overall I take it as a good experience. Many mistakes I did and some I did regretted it. Through the process, I become more mature, firm, discovered a lot about myself and understand the meaning of living in the present. My biggest problem now are my willpower, discipline, self confident and getting things done. I lose the momentum when I decided to kinda partially give up on my life as I don’t see any futures, all of my planning fall into pieces, my relationship neither here or there as my partner is not growing up, I can’t seem to let go of the relationship then I’m kinda stuck in it keep hoping that things will get better ❤️‍🩹, hoping that my past decision will correct itself but the reality was when a person don’t see it don’t want to change the mindset nothing much can be done although gave the best support. It is an inner pain that I have been dealing with, at that point I knew that love is fucking blind. Logic, rationale is non existence.

Once I accepted all of these reality, I want to build back myself and doing my best now LFG! I still believe in myself that I’m a capable person to make thing that I want to happen.

Staying home most of the time for the pandemic did affected me a lot, as much as I’m doing my best to keep a cheerful face, staying strong, brave but deep down I’m broken and worry.